All I feel for you...

 She asked me "What I thought about her ?" 

I said  

" The great thing about you is , 

When I'm looking in your eyes and you looks back in my eyes, 

everything feels not quite normal , 

because I feel , 

stronger and weaker at same time ,

I feel 

excited and terrified at the same time,

 the truth is I don't know what I feel ,

except the kind of woman I wished you to be ,

its as I have , 

I have reached the unreachable end 

and 

I'm not ready for it .

Its Hard to Accept....

Its hard to accept that our memories end right here.

Its hard to accept you're so far when I only want you near.

Its hard to accept being the one whose heart got torn apart.

Its hard to accept you're different from our start.

Its hard to accept that my love walked out the door.

Its hard to accept the change I want to ignore.

Its hard to accept we are actually over.

Its hard to accept that you'll find another.

Its hard to accept that I wasn't enough.

Its hard to accept you'll move on and probably find love.

Its hard to accept that time seems so slow.

Its hard to accept I waited for you years in a row.

Its hard to accept our trust had become so bad.

Its hard to accept you'll never appreciate what you had.

Its hard to accept I won't move on for a while.

Its hard to accept I won't wake up to you're smile.

Its hard to accept who I loved the most just dumped me through the phone.

Its hard to accept being alone.

I don't know it Why ??

I could not talk to you , I dont know it why !!
I could not see you in eyes , I dont know it why !!
I could not face you, I dont know it why !!
I could not meet you, I dont know it why !!


I am saying you sorry, I know it why !!
I am feeling guilty for my deed, I dont know it why !!
I am sorry to hurt you, I know it why !!
I promise I would never repeat this mistake, I know it why !!


I apologise for breaking your trust, I know it why !!
I regret for not being your close friend of yours , I know it why !!
I hope you will forgive me for my deed, I dont know it why !!
But i know you will someday forgive me, I dont know it why !!


I could not live without you, I dont know it why !!
You have been an integral part of me , I dont know it why !!
Our friendship could be at stake for such a damn thing, I dont know it why !!
As its your decision, i totally respect you, I dont know it why !!


Whether I could heal the crack in our friendship , I dont know it why !!
Whether you will forgive me or not , I dont know it why !!
But I will try my best to recover this, I know it why !!
But to make you feel that i really care for you,i have written this , I dont know it why !!


I was left with no other option left with me, I dont know it why !!
But this composition is concerned to say you a HI ,I dont know it why !!


Love ya !! :)

iT's all to "summon-up" !!

It all started with,
A sudden mail from 1 of my friend ,
In which he gave my name as reference, attached with,
To the one of his ,my college visiting ,friend..!!


If I can remember exactly,
She wore a good red colored salwar-suit,!
Which matched her image perfectly,
 Coz, she was looking in that ,so cute !!


The very next day in the morning,
When I, along with my friends saw that black goggles on her,
Their 1st response was , “Dude!! u just got a friend who's a darling..”
But I was taking it all, very easy with her..


Roaming in campus along with her,
Ahhh! T’was a total fun,
For the 1st time I felt the 1100 acre,
A very simple and interesting run…


I still remember that night-out,
To be up early to have with her, the breakfast..!
My friends too supposed to come with me out,
But their ’we will come’ attitude, could not long last.. !!


The final day anyhow arrived,
And she had to leave in the late running train,
I felt, a new relation of friendship has derived,
When I was returning in the awesome rain.. !! 


On one of my question ,she answered,
“You are the one, who is still unaffected living college life”,
Though, this fact is true! For the same question, I answered,
Her as one of my best friends I have in my life..


She is so innocent and cute,
That I wished to ,for me ,have a copy of her,
Who can make my life un-mute,
Not for a moment ,but forever..!


I have tried to be a good friend.
Ahh.. Around,These 234 days,
And will assure this will continue from my side (at-least), till end,
In the upcoming days!




  
Take Care !! Enjoy...

and..Life goes on..... By- A '50%' Engineer !!

Stepping into the college in 1st year,
I was in a l’le fear,
Coz t’was a total new world,
& I’hv to face it ,anyhow, being bold…

Even though clearing the so called ‘JEE’,
Everyone was still involved in a different compete,
And Yeah!!, all were ready for the new campaign,
To have for ,each one of them ,a gal fren..!!

Frankly saying, I burned up my 1st sem,
Trying out on many gals, & Yeah,!! a lot of ‘em,!!
Which totally reflected into my SPI,
& then I realized the actually..!!

With the kickoff of another sem,
I decided not to miss any classes, Yeah!! , anyone of them..!
But coz of them being boring and monotonous one,
My attendance ,fell per week, just one…!!

Crossing the night-outs during the exams,
And some awesome trip to Nainital,
Second Sem ceased somehow,
And CPI,, Ahh.. !! It’ll remain the same anyhow…

3x30 holidays refreshed me a lot,
Or I should say, bored me, infact,
HIMYM & TBBT was my 1st choice,
‘Hv U Met Ted !!’ & ‘Legen..wait for it ..Dary’, was in everyone’s voice..!!


Later half of sem bounded me to my new crush,,
Aa.aa.aa.!! Not gals..this time! t’was FIFA, almost a lush,!!
Proxy this time couldn’t work the way I thought,
And marks, Ahhh.!! Just felt like a drought..!!

4th sem, expectedly, was about to be very cool,,
No!, No! ,No! ,As the days goes on , it felt me like an April fool,!!
For the 1st time, I felt like a real Engineer,
Coz have submitted 6 ,,yeah!,6 projects ,all clear… !!

Clicked some hot chicks in various fests,
Which aroused level of my curiosity in them, at crest,!!
My room’s wall filled with the names of a lot of ’em,,
And I like the way its going on, this sem..!!

Crossed many ups & downs in this ‘4’ sems,
Another ‘4’ to survive & fulfill the dreams,
Even though I’m bad at mathematics ! ,
It feels like ,am being ‘50%’ engineer ,this is the statistics..

I have came across many people in last days,
Some hates me & some praise,
If I had been rude or harsh to anyone,‘
BMJ’ , Yeah, ‘BMJ’ !! is my only sentence to everyone..!!

=== By- A '50'% engineer !!

A Very Happi Gud-Bye.....

What R V fighting over?
I simply do not know.
U have me lost in thoughts,
I'm tossing to and fro.

Soon U will be gone,
And U'll blame this all on me.
What can I say or do,
So the mistake we both can see.

Y did U pick this fight,
With me before you go?
I'm all alone and lost,
But of this U do not know.

If U don't say goodbye,
Before U turn and leave.
What am I supposed to do,
Except to cry and grieve?!

I thought our friendship was special,
I thought it meant a lot.
If U felt the same way,
Why are V stuck in this knot?

I don't like good-byes,
But in this V have no choice.
If U won't speak to me,
The good-bye's will come from MY voice.

We've managed through other fights,
But this one's not the same.
I'm not having any fun,
And I want to stop this game.


U treat me as the only enemy,
U have in U'r life.
But I am OK with it,
As U could remember me as Enemy whole life.

I'm not good at soirees,
So I'll do my best with this.
I have one last request,
It is my goodbye wish.

I wish that V were friends again,
Before V say GOODBYE.
Now that this is off my chest,
I wait and sit and sigh.

A VerY Happi GooD-ByE... :)

A special thanx for the special one...

A special thanx for the special one


What am i without you ,
so difficult for me to think this ,
Everything i need is you ,
thanx for being just like this ..

When i am yippee happy ,
you are the one who accompanies me ,
Also you are with me in my sorrow and needy ,
thanx for being always with me ..

When my chips are gone down ,
you enlightens me with your voice ,
Also i find you with me in my every up and down ,
thanx to make me always rejoice ..

When i scrumble my mind ,
into the moments spent with you ,
My face get smiles with no end ,
thanx for being me with you ..

When i do some wrong deeds ,
you are the one who is there who scolds me ,
And making again my laughing cheeks ,
thanx for being such caring to me ..

Whenever m a bit confused ,
you stand behind me with the solutions ,
There's no case you had ever me refused ,
thanx for making to me such contributions ..


You are such a sweet friend ,
i had ever in my life ,
you are always there to share my every talk without any end ,
thanx for coming into my life ..

I don't believe anyone ,
more than you ,
Because for me you are everyone ,
thanx for giving me the whole world in you ..

I just can't think ,
what would be my life without you ,
as you comes on my mind in every link ,
thanx for allowing me to think about you ..

I just don't know ,
where should i stop ,
It's too short for what i have for you ,
thanx for inspiring me to think and write from bottom to top ..

Lastly ; my feelings for you are not yet over ,
but i have to stop anyhow ,
here's now for the last time but would be forever ,
thanx thanx thanx for anything and anyhow ..